Dear Hearts & Crabs,
I am so sorry for neglecting you. Forgive me and let me give you a hug.
Love, Michelle
Seriously, I could spent a lot of time explaining why I have been so emo this last year, but I am so over it, I don't even want to spend a minute explaining it....so moving on!
I'm not a "New Years Resolution" kind of gal. I don't make resolution lists very often and when I have, I definitely haven't kept them. I use New Years as a starting point but being a perfectionist, if I mess up by January 2nd, I usually throw the whole thing out the window. Yes, I need to work on this.
At the risk of sounding cliche, here is a list of quotes I hope to embrace in 2012...
First of all, the woman in the picture could be me. I am so out of control with my weight that it has reached the dangerous place where things just aren't working the way they should. I'm starting...and that's good enough.
I get so caught up sometimes with the big picture that I rarely see the trees through the forest. How true is this quote? I need to remember it.
I have found myself in a kind of solitude this last year as I found myself questioning much of what I thought made me who I am. My foundation has shifted in a good way but it's been uncomfortable and it's been lonely at times...but I know that in the end it will have been worth it.
A friend pinned this quote the other day (thanks Rachel) and I love it. I love to create and I want to give it more room in my life.
Man oh man. This is a hard one for me. I can apply it to so many areas of my life but I am really going to be challenged with this in my workplace. I left for Christmas break with some open-ended battles and while I don't know the outcome when I return...I know that I need to embrace this. It will be the thing which helps me maintain my sanity.
After I stopped laughing at this quote, I was like, "whoa." So true. I learned a huge lesson this year and this pretty much sums it up. I do not want to learn it again. So...if I don't like where I am...I will change it.
Living in a tiny little guest cottage, this could not be more necessary. It could also not be more difficult. I thought I purged when I moved, but have only found that I could do more. And I need to do more. And this helps guide my decisions. I've heard that Nate guys say the same thing and I like his style...so it must work :)
I spend wayyyy to much time in my own head. Seriously. It must stop. Period.
I think this is the one that speaks to me the most. I have allowed these things to happen already so it's not a matter of not letting it happen again...it's a matter of undoing what I've allowed. I have some work ahead of me and I embrace it.So that's it....2011 is almost over and 2012 is almost here. My apologies that this may have gotten a tad bit heavy. I promise to get back to the fun stuff involving felt and glue guns and leave the emo Michelle to her journal.
Happy New Year!!
Actually, Michelle...I don't find it heavy so much at all as introspective. We all need to step back a bit at times and reevaluate ourselves, and our positions in this world. Are we comfortable where we are, with who we are, with the impact or non-impact we're making on others. I compare it to what my father (a former Marine) used to call, "junk on the bunk". This was something we usually did every season. We'd take out all of our belongings (shoes, shirts, socks, etcetera) and pick out whatever needed replacing, or else do without it altogether, or substitute with something better.
ReplyDeleteI, for one, am very proud of you. I know it's been a tough year, sweetie. For those of us who haven't seen firsthand, it's definitely felt. I hope that whatever negativity was affecting you, is now complete history. I wish for you nothing but happiness, and growth in the new year. I'm feeling pretty friggin' positive about 2012! I believe this is the year where good changes are coming.
I hope I didn't ramble on too much, or muck up your pretty blog. I just thought what you wrote deserved some acknowledgment.
Much love to you, Michelle!!!