Saturday, December 31, 2011

In with the new...

Dear Hearts & Crabs,
I am so sorry for neglecting you. Forgive me and let me give you a hug.
Love, Michelle

Seriously, I could spent a lot of time explaining why I have been so emo this last year, but I am so over it, I don't even want to spend a minute explaining moving on!

I'm not a "New Years Resolution" kind of gal. I don't make resolution lists very often and when I have, I definitely haven't kept them. I use New Years as a starting point but being a perfectionist, if I mess up by January 2nd, I usually throw the whole thing out the window. Yes, I need to work on this.

At the risk of sounding cliche, here is a list of quotes I hope to embrace in 2012...

First of all, the woman in the picture could be me. I am so out of control with my weight that it has reached the dangerous place where things just aren't working the way they should. I'm starting...and that's good enough.

I get so caught up sometimes with the big picture that I rarely see the trees through the forest. How true is this quote? I need to remember it.
I have found myself in a kind of solitude this last year as I found myself questioning much of what I thought made me who I am. My foundation has shifted in a good way but it's been uncomfortable and it's been lonely at times...but I know that in the end it will have been worth it.

A friend pinned this quote the other day (thanks Rachel) and I love it. I love to create and I want to give it more room in my life.

Man oh man. This is a hard one for me. I can apply it to so many areas of my life but I am really going to be challenged with this in my workplace. I left for Christmas break with some open-ended battles and while I don't know the outcome when I return...I know that I need to embrace this. It will be the thing which helps me maintain my sanity.

After I stopped laughing at this quote, I was like, "whoa." So true. I learned a huge lesson this year and this pretty much sums it up. I do not want to learn it again. So...if I don't like where I am...I will change it.

Living in a tiny little guest cottage, this could not be more necessary. It could also not be more difficult. I thought I purged when I moved, but have only found that I could do more. And I need to do more. And this helps guide my decisions. I've heard that Nate guys say the same thing and I like his it must work :)

I spend wayyyy to much time in my own head. Seriously. It must stop. Period.

I think this is the one that speaks to me the most. I have allowed these things to happen already so it's not a matter of not letting it happen's a matter of undoing what I've allowed. I have some work ahead of me and I embrace it.

So that's it....2011 is almost over and 2012 is almost here. My apologies that this may have gotten a tad bit heavy. I promise to get back to the fun stuff involving felt and glue guns and leave the emo Michelle to her journal.

Happy New Year!!