Saturday, January 29, 2011

Johnny Nash said it best....

What can I say... it has been a while since I've posted anything and that just makes me sad. So sad that I've been gun-shy on how to get started again. Tonight, I figured the best things to do is to just do it. Open my blog and start writing.

I don't know how to explain in words what the last few months have been, but I can say that it felt like a huge rain cloud, with accompanying fog, settling in around me slowly and I didn't even realize it. I'm not sure when it started but I became aware of it slowly as well. I decorated for Christmas, but not my normal, over-the-top, decor. I celebrated Christmas, but quietly and with family. I turned 40, and if my friends hadn't planned an amazing surprise birthday party, I was ready to let that slip by quietly as well. It was part depression, part reflection and part confusion. I'm not sure why exactly but I'm sure some contributing factors were the anniversary of my mom's death, unhappiness with certain parts of my life and family drama.

Regardless... the fog has lifted, the sun is shining, and I am renewed. Not because my problems have disappeared but because my perspective has shifted. I learned some things about myself, my life and my God. I am a work in progress and ready to start the engine again.

I read this quote and loved it... and was immediately hit by how I had been living myself. It struck a cord and I have not forgotten it and live in awareness of the fear that has held me back. But no more. Simply no more. Happy New Year to me.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

~Marianne Williamson


  1. That first sentence in the second! I've been trying to think of a way to describe how I've felt this past year every since my grandpa died...and that hits the nail on the head! I just may have to use that (with credit of course!) I'm glad your back :-)

  2. Love the quote and I love that your back to your blog it is inspiring to me. You are an inspiration to me. I too have been going thru some of lifes issues, depression, health, etc and you are right...a change of perception is good medicine...Keep your head up and let your light shine.

  3. Thank you girls! Feel free to use anything Rachel!